Hobbies

Summer Read

This summer I have a big plan. That plan is to read a big book. It’s a book I’ve had in mind for the last two years and it’s sitting on my top shelf right now, snug right next to my Sarah Dessen collection and my all time favourite book Roses by Leila Meacham. That is how important it is. It just has to be read.

I want to read it during the perfect summer. I think it’s about time that that perfect summer is now. What better time to do it than when I’ve come through my first year of university, have a house with amazing friends and a whole 3 months to stretch out and relax before term starts again?

Gone With The Wind.

I just can’t wait. It’s my motivation for getting me through the two books that I’m reading at the moment. I’ve been reading both of them for just over a month and they’re just so slow. I don’t even know if I can take it anymore. I skim most of the pages I read, but they’re whopping great novels. It’s almost painful just trying to get through them.

So Gone With The Wind is my motivation and The One of this year that I just can’t wait to pick up and peel back the pages.

What will be your read this summer?

Hobbies, Poetry, Writing

This Love Was Ours

Recently, I wrote a poem and submitted it to a local broadcast radio show. I JUST got an email back saying they will broadcast my poem!
It’s about loving something, or someone, so much and so dear, when suddenly you find they’re not your own anymore and you’re having to struggle against the tide to hold onto them. And when you are holding on to them, they don’t love you anymore and everything just turns bitter. Love has gone wrong and love is now empty.

NOTE: I wrote this not about anyone I know personally, but about a singer-songwriter who I adored for some intense few years. Now, they’re a complete sellout and it makes me sad to see them like this now, all contemporary, cheap and fake compared to the beauty and richness of how they used to be. At least, that’s how I remember them to be.
Try and work out who the poem addresses if you wish.
Sadly, I can guarantee you will have heard of them.

This Love Was Ours

i loved you, back then
but now the love tastes bitter and scalded
i still think of you, all the time
of the days back when you were Mine

because there was a time,
when i used to run around Fearless,
knowing what we had was a perfect little
Love Story

your Starlight shined to me
and although i still remain Invisible to you
i’ll still forever adore you,
although your State of Grace has now fallen

i wanted you to stay forever sixteen,
i wanted you to Never Grow Up
i wanted you to Stay
Stay, Stay

The Way I Loved You was intense,
and so, so easy; Untouchable,
but jealousy has spiralled in and out,
and out of my control

you comforted a girl whose world had been shattered
around her by divorce, depression
and instability
you allowed her to Breathe

now i’m stuck, stuck on The Outside
where it’s bitter and cold
Treacherous, even
Everything Has Changed

so Long Live
those times I used to share with you
because they’re not my own anymore
and they were truly The Best Day(s)

And when I think Tim McGraw,
yes
of course
do think of you

It’s personal, it’s deep, and it’s cutting. I was in rather a melacholy state of sadness when I wrote it. I just wish they could read it too and see how much they mean to people when they change.